Chris Brown Felt Like A F*cking Monster When He Hit Rihanna

Chris Brown has said he felt like a "f**king monster" on the night he hit ex-girlfriend Rihanna. "I remember she tried to kick me, just like her beating s**t, but then I really hit her,” Brown recalls of the 2009 incident in a new clip from his new documentary Chris Brown: Welcome to My Life. “With a closed fist, like I punched her and it busted her lip. And when I saw it I was in shock, I was like, f**k why did I hit her like that?" Brown goes on to explain that things got physical after the couple ran into a woman he was previously involved with at Clive Davis’ pre-Grammys party. "From there she's spitting blood in my face, it raised me even more,” he continues. “It's a real fight in the car and we were driving in the street... She tried to grab for my phone, and I'm not giving her my phone, to throw it out the window."